Saturday, July 31, 2010

7.19.2010 . 7.30.2010

I am tired of office life. Its been one month and I had only interacted with one person in office, with 'Good Morning' and 'Bye' (At my floor) and an alumnus of my school as a lunch partner.Thats all and rest is I and my thinkpad; we both don't think, just chill-out. Chilling is good, me on FB and TP in a/c environment.

In these two weeks, there was nothing much about office life. Those days, people stared at me, may be because of nobody works that much time for remotely, and people don't assume that only one person can make a Team here for any project.

So, apart from office, only life I had is to spend time at home. This week, I had an Idea that for a salaried person its hard to dream wide and big, even the salary amount varies.

Let me explain this, at this time a normal person plans according to fix income monthly, so he spent the month in debt of the next month. For a businessman, he lives the life of last month's earning.

So, for a little business I traveled to Alwar, visited the sites and met with the people. It was just starting and we had to learn a lot for our business. Anyway, while talking with people and friends, I added a new thought to my book, which I am writing for self exploration, and find out meaning of self existence in this world.

The thought was that many time you see people doing things which is not acceptable by majority of society, then you want a change, change in a person's paradigm/value/basic instincts.

This change can only occur or revert a person's habit, "if you let them know that they are having a 'bad' habit"; not by telling so many times.

Apart from writing blogs I am missing books and magazines, after coming to Home. Most of time I spent talking with relatives and friends.

In these two weeks I got time to talk someone, who is new to my friend circle, and I was keen to know more.

I am using the IBM's facility 'working from HOME' very efficiently, and this is a major reason to be with IBM.

Sawan is started with last week of July. These are Rimjim days, all birds are singing, new corps are shining and rising. Its truly heaven here, clouds in sky all the time, Fog in morning sometime, green earth surface, birds and animal are living fullest with humans.

With all this environment, I understood why all the people want to live in a heaven !!

सागर से ही जाकर है मिलना, हो हर नदी की तकदीर में जैसे,
हर सुबह खिलकर महकना, हो हर फूल की  फितरत में जैसे,
खुद जलकर हमेशा, रोशन करना होता है हर उजाले को,
टूटना-जुड़ना फिर नए काफिले बनाना, हो हर राही का मुकद्दर जैसे....

Monday, July 19, 2010

7.12.2010 . 7.18.2010

You might have bored with what I have written back, I believe too. So, with this blog, I will start writing about events, how I perceive them too. As an example, when I see a blonde on road side, I am afraid. There are many assumptions about what she can do. May be she can start acting in front of CCTV camera, thinking of video shoot (prank) in her city :), or its NDTV in her city.

Anyway, I started more working from home as our product recently went out to customers, and we are searching for a safe corner. :)

Monday, I was in Jaipur. It was raining when I opened my eyes with a cup of tea.  It was awesome out-side, 'rimjhim baris', 'sawan ki bahare' as you can say a hug from nature with full of energy.

I spent the day with my friends, we went to the largest mall in Jaipur (Hyper City). We took lunch there, and looked around. In this situation, I perceived that any name you gave to the city, like Jaipur is 'Pink City' or city of 'Girls' indirectly (see the color :) ) but there are all boys wondering around.

In the evening I reached my home, and did nothing.. :)

Tuesday, I reached office to do nothing, watch nothing, and talk nothing. "I want some air people", I wanted to shout but was afraid of IBM NC's. You got 3 NCs in a year and you are free to roam in this unemployed India.

Rest 3 days, I listened to music, watched some funny videos on facbook, and yes helped L3 to close some PMRs.

After helping support team, I came to know, there was orgnizational change in my team. And from nowhere, I was put in L3. "OMG, what have I done" I thought.

Its Friday again, and I came back to Home on my sweet and cruise Ride. When the wind flows against you and you drive at 110 KM/hr, when environment is full of clouds, when lightening in sky storms like to light up all dead thoughts, and a National Highway beneath you, YOU FEEL LIKE GOD !! (Sorry to advertise Bajaj Avenger :P )

This weekend, I met with the parents of a nice-&-energetic girl. Yes, you all are guessing right, I am moved to Gurgaon to get married, but wait .. No hurry. The process is just began.......

Hope you enjoyed my writing... Love to all.

इन वादियों की नरम हवा ने, लोरी गा के हमें सुलाया है,
सुबह की भीनी धुप ने, कोमल पत्तियों को छू कर जगाया है,
बादलो की लम्बी छाव जैसे खेलने को कह रही हो दिन-भर,
इन्ही लम्हों को मिलाकर, जिंदगी ने हमें जीना सीखाया है !!

Monday, July 12, 2010

7.5.2010 . 7.11.2010

I always dreamed to wake up by voices of birds and mild sound of crops, which are softly moved to-and-fro by wind. On Monday morning at Home, while it was raining, I came across to my dream fulfilled.

You won't believe that a software engineer can wake up as early as 5AM, just to start the day. I was sleeping under the open sky, on roof, and when I opened my eyes it was amazing outside, sun was rising in the east with very big shape, and breeze was blowing. The Bal hanuman story in which he gulped the sun, came to my mind.

After breakfast, I started to Gurgaon office, to see the office differently then I have worked here remotely. And the major difference was, I had my bike with me, and it was amazing to ride on a cruise even when you know that you are going some bored and exhausted place.

All 4 days were same, boring and alone. In this office people don't talk, don't move, even don't smile as if they are working here on the gun's point. I tried to find out the guns, but all in vein.

I left office on Thursday evening, and reached home. I took a long breath of relief and calmness as soon as I put step out of bus. In metros, when I see people that crowded, I start hating them as I am not able to resolve this, for what purpose they are standing and moving on with 1 SqFt land. Its all illusions, the metros, the people and the life.

My home is situated in a village. When I see fields of green grass, trees, and birds; I again start loving people. And it make me feel that we shouldn't run, w shouldn't just watch, we should be the part of usual life.

Rest 3 days, I emitted the various sounds, noises from my mind, which were filled when I was in Gurgaon. Believe or not, I felt the process of noise emission, and increasing calmness in mind.

I also help to move some heavy stones ;), as I was trying my strength in construction work, which was going on at home. I have shared pics on fb and orkut, if you are interested in.

Again with a sweet Morning, 11th July, I started to the place, where I am opposite to inner myself.

Thanks to the nature, and you all who are supporting my belief to live for the people, I am living with.

यूँ तो इन हवाओ ने, हमें सुनाया है हाल आपका,
इन फिज़ाओ ने गुनगुनाया है कोई गीत आपका,
दिल को फिर भी नहीं मिलाती तसल्ली इन सब से,
जब तक खुद नहीं देख लेते, FB पे satatus आपका. ...

Sunday, July 4, 2010

6.28.2010 . 7.4.2010

Sometimes, your well educated mind is baffled with the activities, people do in social environment. Same happened to me this Monday, soon after I returned from Ganges.

In our society, we do organize a feast, when an old person passes away in family, for social status and respect. Sometime back this was a compulsory, as a ritual but now a days, people are more intended to save money and thats good too.

So, at home, nobody count weekdays. They rather prefer weeks of holidays. I was on leave and the whole week seemed to me as a continuous story.

I did meet with lot of relatives and friends, family friends. Sometime, I was puzzled by people by asking a very difficult question. When a person knows you and he had met you a long time back, and now if he asks "do you recognize me ?"; you are in trouble.

Whole week was kind of routine to me, talking, talking and talking.... and more talking. On 2nd July, we did arrange food for all 'tehsil' people, as it was 12th Day.

If you want to learn your society, you have to be there and involved, the basic requirement everybody tells. But this is not that simple, where people do say something and expecting something else at the same time.

"Deemaag gol gol ghumane lagta hai, kya kare, aur kya nahi".. This is how, you learn your social interactions.

Mansoon came on 3rd July, and everyone welcomed it. Fooooo, it was very hot and this was like, "Doobate ko tinke ka sahara", In farms, most of crops were burnt dry. This was redemption from God, for the Green creature, He created on earth.

किसे खबर है, धरी की प्यास का, सिवाय बादल के,
किसे होश है आज, धरती पे, सिवाय शराबी के,
यूँ तो भटक रहा है, हर कोई, एक आशियाना के लिए;
किसे ख्याल है, हमारे दिल का, सिवाय आपके.....